Banned. My story on what happened. «GяїиĐєя。λυร

[thegrinder]

It's no doubt that I've been the but of some controversy over the past few weeks, and damn straight. Server Admins (Particularly SSM Speed, and Maniacs Cyber) have been not only abusing there power, but treating people like retards in the process. Just a little warning, I suffer from bipolar, depression, and am currently relapsing.

SSM Speed, and the reason I hated him. Basically, it comes down to 2 things. His complete lack of understanding on how to run/maintain a server, and the way that he treated the long time users on that server. He had no lack of what a good/bad map was, and based his opinion on whatever noobs (beginners) said about maps. If they were too difficult, they got deleted. A lot of us tried to reason with him, trying to help him make decisions about maps, but even after he listened to us, not 2 weeks after. He completely ignored us, and deleted maps he said he'd leave on. It was crap like this, spread over a long, long time that drove me to say that I'd wish he would die, change my name to Grinder #FuckyouSSMSpeed, and ultimately actually want him dead. Also, another thing that annoyed me about SSM Speed, is the fact he didn't organize some kind of English and French speaking Moderator. I have no problems with him only speaking French (I only speak English), but not organizing some kinda moderators that speak both English and French was another thing that pissed me off. After changing my name from «GяїиĐєя。λυร, too «GяїиĐєя #FuckyouSSMSpeed, nothing actually happened. It took SSM Speed around 4-6 weeks to actually realize what my name was saying (because he only speaks French) and then he went to Nadeo Support to try and get my account banned. He full on blocked his server, stopping anyone from playing, kind of stopping the server from running until Nadeo fixed it. Ofcourse, they gave me a warning, changed my name, and I was banned from SSM Very Short. He put up a forum post, here: (viewtopic.php?t=30661&p=241687.

Maniacs Cyber, and the reason I *hate him. He made fun of me, didn't expect me to respond, and then when I did, I get banned. The story goes, I asked him to add a map to the server, Too Close: (http://tm.mania-exchange.com/tracks/22116/too-close) and he kindly said he would, added it and juked it. For the record, this map has 22 awards on Maniaplanet, and tonnes of good players, not beginners like this map. Once we got onto it, he noticed it had a global karma of 30/100. That's when I, sadly but acceptingly understood that it would not stay on this server. I said to him, that maybe the track was a bit too difficult for beginners, they would down vote it and it'd eventually get deleted (I wasn't even going to go down that path again). So I said to him, if he thinks it's just too difficult, delete it. He, ofcourse did, but I accepted it this time. What came next is what tipped me off the edge. He decided that the best course of action, would be to rub the fact that the map was deleted in my face, saying things like "it didn't even last 2 minutes on this server", and "awards on MX don't matter, they're from years ago". About the second thing, he kinda forgot that the votes, aswell, would have come from years ago, completely destroying the other half of his argument, but we won't go down there. I didn't take this well, and after hearing about this shit for over 5 minutes. I simply said "I've had enough. I will come back when you are being less of a cunt". Which, for my standards was tame, and it was me taking a step in the right direction. I come back on the next day, play for a bit and then I'm banned. Again. (THIS HAS BEEN FIXED AND NO LONGER APPLIES BUT I'LL STILL LEAVE IT UP)

I don't expect this post to go anywhere, but I just wanted to explain my story to anyone who was wondering why he's being a crazy arsehole. No doubt my crazy mood swings and shit will drive me to another outburst that gets my account completely banned. It doesn't matter now anyway. The main 2 servers I play on have banned me outright, and I find myself struggling to find a server to play on now. One of my favourite games, outright unplayable now because of my inability to control my mood, and servers downright abuse of power.

[novationx]

Hmm,
My quick opinion:

1. Dont change ur nickname in an insult.
How in your mind would that actually help anything? It wont, exactly.

2. Wishing someone dead?
Are you serious? And then you write it on a public forum. Awww.

3. Not having an english moderator pisses you of.
It's not like he's in control of people. It's a game. Mods are volunteers. No volunteers, no mods. Ez.

4. It's his server. He can basically choose whatever maps he wants.
He doesn't speak english at all, so miscommunication is bound to happen.

5. Maybe he should have taken your map more seriously and given it a chance.


1/2/3 is on you bro. If I'd be admin I would have banned you too.
A good admin would try to handle 4/5 correctly, I'll give you that, but its no reason to go and act childish.


Why do you mention you have a depression? It's off-topic and it's not gonna win you any arguements.
You can step up & defend yourself with other things, but not your weaknesses.
Now man up, look up SSM.Speed, get this fixed, both apologize and enjoy the GAME.
It's a game, invented to entertain people, not make them frustrated/rage/cry.

cheers

[thegrinder]

I understand fully and entirely that those problems are on me. The 1st and 3rd. But I will stand by this. Neither of those things would have happened, if the admins hadn't either; abused their power, or run servers in a shitty way. Still, throwing my problems out as someone else's fault is not great to do, I just want to defend my actions is whatever way I can, even though I was a shitty person.
As for the 2nd point, I know plenty of people who would have volunteered for nothing. In fact, SSM Speed managed to get someone to translate for his forum, but did nothing in terms of the server. If he had tried to organize stuff, and was unable to, I could understand that. But he clearly didn't.

I don't like bringing up my personal ailments, but I wanted to tell people the whole story. And telling people about my depression and bipolar means that people understand more about why I did, what I did. That's why I snap easily. That's why I don't have as much patience compared to other people and that's why I don't think about the consequences.

And your final part, that's what I want from Trackmania. I just want to enjoy that game, it's helped me alot, and I've put like 1500 hours into it. I don't want any of this shit to happen.

[TheBigG.]

Speed und Godo are know for being bad admins, both act since years like 12 year old childs, simply ignore them and you are fine.

[thegrinder]

I wish I could, but because I'm an Australian, the prime time for playing means that the only servers with a decent amount of players is SSM Very Short, or Maniacs 60k. Occasionally there are other servers with like 2-4 people on them if I'm lucky. It's incredibly unfortunate, but I had to deal with either one of those admins.

[SSM.Speed...]

salut

vous dite que je suis un admin créateur de serveur de merde poser vous une seul question ? pourquoi les server SSM° son les server les plus fréquenter de TM 2006 a maniaplanet 2015 avec shootmania

You said that I'm a server admin crap creator
ask you one question? why the server SSM ° the server most frequent TM 2006 ManiaPlanet 2015 with ShootMania

PS autotrackmanager 80% de moins pour 20% plus = remove sur 50 vote vive la démocratie no !!!

[Alinoa]

Thegrinder, the best advise that I can tell you is to host your own server or to find someone to run it as you have a very precise idea of what kind of maps you like and what kind of moderation you are looking for.

[thegrinder]

SSM Speed, just because your server is popular, by no means does that mean you are a good admin. Popular, does not equal good. Fact mate.

About me hosting my own server, there is no point. As I was talking about before, every server that isn't already established doesn't get a decent enough player base in order to kick it off. It sucks, it seriously does. We are left dealing with the shitty servers and admins that have already established themselves.

[SSM.Speed...]

salut/hi

tu à rien compris et c dommage
tu dit que mon server est populaire comment il est devenue populaire
par miracle ??
justement c la gestion qui est importante

you to Under stand anything and c damage
you said that my server is popular how it became popular
miraculously ??
precisely c management is important

[maniaccyber]

Hi Community, Hi theGrinder,

every Player is welcome on our Server.
But we dont tolerate insults against other Player or Server Admins.
That was the reason for the Ban. ( i dont repeat this bad words here)
ManiaC Wolf an me talked about this ,and may be we unban you, the Grinder, if you work on your behavior.
greetings
Cyber